Miscarriages

   

The unspoken:

Miscarriage is real and no one ever speaks about it because, for a women it’s a failure, a loss, a disappointment and a really tough thing to go through. It’s even harder to have to do it in private. We don’t want to share this loss because we don’t want to answer questions, be constantly reminded or be treated with pity. The reality is…. We just want silent support. Don’t ask why it happened or how it happened or what I am going to do next. The truth is…. I don’t know, I just want to get through this. I speak from personal experience. I have three healthy beautiful girls and my experiences were all different but, somewhat difficult in different ways. I had my first child with no issues at the young age of 23. My pregnancy was pretty easy, I did deliver at 36 weeks but, the baby was 7 and a half pounds and all was good. Never did I think I would have any issues getting pregnant. When my daughter was 2 I had two miscarriages with no explanations and I really didn’t feel I needed an explanation at the time because, I wasn’t looking to get pregnant at the time. I said it was meant to be and moved on. When my daughter was almost 4 we decided we were ready to have a second child and of course, at that point I did have concerns over the two miscarriages I had. Turns out, I needed to have some large fibromas removed in order to get pregnant. We really wanted to have another baby so we went thru with it. The downside was, it had to be done as a C-section. Therefore I would never be able to have another natural birth. I was heartbroken but, grateful that I was even able to have that experience. A couple of months after I was pregnant with my second baby and little did I know what a rollercoaster ride I was in for. The first couple of months were fairly good but, once I hit about 24-26 weeks I started to bleed. I rushed to the hospital only to hear there was a big chance we could lose our baby girl. I was around 26 weeks and put on complete bed rest, my miracle baby made it to 34 weeks, very healthy and almost 7 pounds, god is good. After our traumatic experience we waited years before deciding to have a third baby but, little did I know that I was going to encounter many more miscarriages. I went to specialist and no one had any answers, it was just the way it was meant to be apparently. I lost a total of about 7 pregnancies and one of them being a set of twins at 3 months. I was ready to give up but something inside of me never did. After all that, I am happy to say we were able to get pregnant and stay pregnant, our beautiful princess is now a year old. I had the best pregnancy even though, I was terrified there was a possibility I could lose her based on previous experiences. She made it to 37 weeks and I couldn’t have asked for a better baby. Our family is now complete. I know many don’t want to speak about it but, just know you’re not alone. This is much more common than you think. Don’t give up if this is what you really want. I’m glad I didn’t.